Today is my fourth day without a drink, and the first one that I actually wanted one. I think it is because I am bored and stressed more than wanting the drink.
Last night and this morning I had a really good feeling. I felt good about things. That all changed about 10:30, and everything I did this afternoon just broke my heart.
Then I get back to my Mom's house, where it is just me and my daughter, and quiet and lonely. I think I am having small anxiety attacks on top of my crying fits. I also think I screwed up my eye from too much crying if that is possible...of course it might be from the other reason, either way it looks like it is bleeding.
I am a mess. I want to just go to bed and cry myself to sleep, but have to be strong for K.
Meet Me
- Kristina
- Portland, Oregon
- First and the most important, I am married and I am a mother to the most bestestest kids. I am currently "on hiatus" from working. I spend the days talking to my aunt and reading gossip sites.
My Children, T & K
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